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yesterday was my birthday. alhamdulillah thank u Allah for the life that you gave me. and my mom whom i truly believe went through all the labour pain to get me out to this world and all the pain she bears after that due to my stubbornness, my words, my acts and whatever i did that might made her feel sad.

what a number. what a celebration. let just say, my favourite month has been so kind to me so far and that's including the weather. its getting a bit cold but a bit of sunshine every other day.

getting older means your body is aging too. i cannot deny that i am scare of my body health. although i did watch what i eat and exercise much as i can, but still its a concern. but at the end of the day, all i want is to be happy AND healthy. i dont really care much about body figures. im super skinny (tho i dont really fancy about being too skinny) but also has flabby arms and extra baby fat around my tummy and sometimes, given certain pose or clothes, i can look hideous. because once, i, too, a super skinny person, being mistaken as a pregnant lady. anyway, i already burnt that dress. at this age, im just going to please myself (but still instagram-able - mesti LOL).

anyway, after too much eating from yesterday, and you know, the summer's eating habit is at worse. totally. so, i have decided to make a change in my diet plan. that will go from today till 8 weeks. i will tell if it makes any different. physically and mentally. semoga istiqomah.

although september is very much ehem favourite, but birthday was over. so i am looking forward to october. we already booked a camping pod in peak district for another nature adventure this coming autumn break. i was told peak district is beautiful in autumn so i hope the weather being nice and we get to explore the place in peace. although i cannot imagine of packing and unpacking for a camping trip. gosh they fill up half the space in the car! the downside of camping is that you have to bring EVERYTHING but in small size/portion. how do you do that???? as much as i am a nature personn, i dont really favour camping. but i give ways to camping pod as they are slightly comfy than the tent LOL

dream

i've had weird dream lately. and they were pretty much based on the k-drama that i watched except that i was in it. lol. #getcarriedaway

this december will marks our three years here. when someone said when will we be coming back home and i said end of next year, dec 2017. she said that's a long way to go. thats what i told myself 3 years ago when we decided to make a move here. and now, it's not that long way to go anymore. 

i am grateful that over the years plus few years before that, i get to explore this queen's land from north to south, west to east. still, there's more places that i wanted to go and see for myself. i want to go to see the longest name of town that you cant possibly pronounce it. i want to see the magical autumn of peak district. the cavern. the mountains and rivers and valleys that never bored me. the scenic train route that wont make u get off the train. surely i will miss this land. 

ah well, i'll be too lucky if i get to travel all i want and i know im not that lucky. cmon. i never win any lucky draw, that the first to tell. 

dream is free. i'll continue to dream all i want. for i know, i will be in it.