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I failed to transfer my 8933 pictures from my phone to my ageing laptop. I don't know why but it seems like Photo did not recognised my phone. Truth is, my MacBook is 10 years old now. For a computer, he's old citizen. Since I couldn't transfer all my photo, I tried other app, Safari. Then I look up the most frequently visited page - my blog. SO DUSTY (virtually). Might as well update a little bit although who else read blog these days. People rather browse through 10 igstories to read a whole nagging or bragging of the day, don't we? But I'll write anyway. The sound of the keypad seems like  therapeutic at the moment.

Been back in Malaysia since Jan this year so that has been 6months ish. Alhamdulillah, just last week, Izzal got a job so I have been back on my own running the house and doing school run. Its tiring as usual. I find times goes even faster since then. I cannot believe that Ihsan turning ONE next month. I have been home and I have seen, watch and learn about the kids all days seconds day in life but still I find that I'm still missing it somewhere. Like, how did you learn to climb the the slide? And even goes down by himself? I remembered teaching him once. He must have practices doing it while I'm busy doing something else (which is very dangerous! climb a slide without assistance!). And that made me think, I'm so lucky that nothing bad has happened when he's on his own. If so, I would feel so bad because I am home, I did not work, and I guess I do somehow put pressure on myself to blame if I'm not able to fulfil a job as a mother, like feeding them with not a home cook meal, not playing with them, saying no when they asked me to play with them, etc etc.

Anyway, overall, its not bad. I do miss life in London especially the school run and i love the school there (although I'm not the one attending it but I do love the teachers and the school. the environment is different). But, life is okay now. Would I want more? Maybe but I think I'm enough for now. My husband taking care of us nicely, irfan's enjoying school, sun and rain, family that I can talk and see them anytime.

I guess that's all about now. Till next post (in gazillion years time lol)

xx