Thursday, May 18, 2017

may babies

This year we don't host any birthday party for the kids but they had series of celebration. The first was with my brother in law's family who came visit. The second was Izyan's birthday, which she celebrated at the Stay and Play Session and at home. Then Irfan's birthday, which he celebrated at school and at home as well. Dont ask how much cakes I made and how much we ate. Enough to say that quota cake semua dah habis guna this month so I have to wait for next month pula. Good thing Ramadhan is just around the corner, so I had the chance to sugar diet (hopefully).

My sister and my dad also are celebrating their birthday on 7th and 18th of may respectively. We never had the chance to make a huge may birthday party, yet. And I wish we will get the opportunity soon, InshaAllah.

Thursday, May 11, 2017

just (hanya)

Izyan's going to school this September. While waiting for that, I have been giving myself a lot of thoughts about what I want to do, in my life. Since I left my jobs almost 4 years ago, I don't know if I should go back to work in the same field. I've worked for almost 7 years. My job is tough but I love it and I kept going (I could have left) because I have the passion of what I did. I've only quit because I had to prioritise my family. So, yes, I love my job but do I still have the passion? I told my mom about my plan and she told me to take up something that related to my field. She's referring to my engineering field , that I used to work in. But, maybe I'm on the different field now mom. 


Being a housewife for almost 4 years now, honestly, it did bring down my self esteem. I don't know how to describe it but I think thats the word that suit what I felt right now. When I used to work,  people used to ask me about my opinion and my decision and I felt wanted and important. Some comes from miles to get my signature for approval or wait for weeks to set appointment with me. Don't get me wrong, I love being at home too. I mean, yeah sometimes my kids asked if they could play outside and can only go out if I said yes or my husband asked if we should buy the new dishes dryer or asked me to plan for spring holiday or what should everybody wear today for outing. I do feel wanted and important - but only in my own home. Apart from signing on receiving parcel, I signed approval to allow Irfan goes on a school trip to the zoo. When I'm out, I was nobody but - just a housewife. Do I make decisions about the world? Not really although I should write the mayor about the rude bus driver who won't stop even when I pressed the bell. 


Sometimes my husband asked me to meet him for lunch at his university's cafe, I went along dragging my feet like there's some big steel ball chained to it. I felt all eyes on me when I push the buggy and a toddler trotting beside me, like 'who's is this lady with some kids doing in the university?'. Reality is, nobody damn care about me. But I felt like so bad about myself that I was not someone that changing the whole world. I am just a housewife. I hate the word just the housewife. When there is ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH IT, I felt like I was all wrong in it. So the issue here is not the world nor other housewives but purely just the crazy me. 


So I have to fix that. Very quick. And not let it escalated to something even more danger. Ok that sounds too serious. 


For now, let just hope my plan all. goes. well.


hiatus

I have so many things to write but there's always something coming up and when I'm in front of the computer,  it just went blank. The last time I write was about some weather. And also to update, our trip to Cornwall was cancelled. What happened was, our rental car got hit by someone while it was parked outside. We had to returned it and were so unfortunate that we could not get a replacement because all cars were out since it was bank holiday. It was 7 a.m, we were literally ready to get our ass out from the house, when my husband went down to check the car and was told that the accident happened as 6 a.m. While, my husband went through all the hassle to settle it down i.e returning the car, the insurance, the police statement, I took my in laws to Portobello Market (luckily it was Saturday) and Holland Park. It was a nice outings but secretly, still our heart ached when we thought about the musibah. That night when I read the Quran, I came across such a beautiful ayat (can't remember the Surah but I quickly forwarded it to my husband).

"Setiap bencana yang menimpa di bumi dan yang menimpa dirimu sendiri, semuanya telah tertulis dalam kitab (Lauh Mahfuz) sebelum Kami mewujudkannya. Sungguh, yang demikian itu mudah bagi Allah"

"Agar kamu tidak bersedih hati terhadap apa yang luput dari kamu, dan tidak pula terlaulu gembira terhadap apa jua yang diberikan-Nya kepadamu. Dan Allah tidak menyukai setiap orang yang sombong dan membangga diri,"

SubhanAllah.

Often I heard (especially from someone's hijrah story), that Allah answered their question when they read Al-Quran. Many times, I read the Quran and trying to flip to random pages to read the translation. I just came across some ayat relating to random events like about Nabi Musa or pemuda al-Kahfi. Or maybe many times across some ayat relating zakat, solat, neraka etc. But its not like, you know, the 'bang!' or 'this-is-it' feeling. Maybe its because when I read it, I don't read it with the right purpose. I read it only because I wanted to read it.

That night, when I read it, I read it because I want to heal my ached heart from that incident so I don't feel sad about everything. And honestly, after that, I feel a bit better about the whole thing.

Thank you Allah.

Sunday, March 5, 2017

Weather

Weather had been changing every other week. One week it was all sunny the next was all windy and raining. Even after so many times I lived here, i still feel its a little crazy when we talk about England's weather. It usually happened at the changing season period. Also, it funny to find how British plays with their statistic on their weather - 'The hottest day in 10 years' 'The extreme frozen temperature in 20 years' 'The most windy day in a 100 years'. Don't you think its a bit exaggerate? Anyway, as I began to understand the weather changing, it made me much better in preparing vacation or day out or advising other people on their itinerary. Say , don't come in march and November, it will be raining, cold, and windy. Come when weather best in April, for its beautiful flowers in spring - not too hot and not too cold or in October, where the best of golden colours of autumn. Don't come in summer - it just did not make any sense if you are from hot country LOL.

My sister plan to visit in october and i cant wait to show her around the best place for autumn. my brother in law made such a wise decision to come visit in April, so we plan to bring him to the coolest side of west England in Cornwall where beautiful beach and cliff located. 

Weather is an interesting topic to talk about when you stay here in United Kingdom. You can talk about it with just anyone you meet because it has never been an awkward topic. Its funny because when I was in Malaysia, hell no body care to talk about weather. Its either rain or sun and thats it. Of course there's monsoon season but it hardly changes every other week ridiculously. I am so used to weather topic, that everytime I call my family, I would ask 'Hujan ke panas sane Ma?' even when Im in Malaysia. Like seriously, if KL hujan, later on Kedah also must hujan kan. 

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

3 years to 2020

fancy ways of saying its 2017! happy new year. not too late although its already february. i have to blog about how crazy busy we were in the early month of the year. so that when its all end, i get to read it and smile at our silliness of saying the word crazy busy. my husband went out so early and came home quite late. he is definitely pushing himself to get it all done by end year. that left me to handle the kids. sent irfan to school is my additional job and phew some days he really get on my nerve, that boy. but at least i dont get to think about why the graph came out weird. so i pity my husband :p

also, because of the super critical phase that we are in now, we cant afford to plan any vacations. we didnt go anywhere this winter. luckily my brother in law and family will come this spring so i get to persuade my husband to go on a short trip in cornwall ( all is booked so yay!). i got plan for summer but that also had to KIV (cry!). i didnt plan for autumm and the next winter because i dont want to feel bad about myself lol. so, i dont want to make my life so dull with no-vacation -- because, lets face it, we are in london. how dull can it be? i told myself, okay, if i cant go on a vacation every season, lets make the full use of london. i listed out some places (free) and make plans on certain weekends & school holiday / half term break. i hope i still find some hidden gems spots around london that can last through the year. 

after our vacation to aviemore last winter, bracing ourself in 13 hour train journey and cold - just to have that 1 day playing with snow on top of ski mountain, i almost said - i ticked off the winter list. as a someone who comes from hot and humid country i thought winter is all about snow. if it aint snowing, it is not winter! betul kan? too bad i live in the part of the country where winter means frosty and foggy morning. and even when its snowing, it just a sleet. booo london. but idont want to just play with snows, i want to ice skate on frozen lake, see frozen waterfall, build a snowman as tall as me and make an igloo (or maybe that's too much), ride a reindeer or husky dogs or snowmobile! and so my winterlist gets on and on. although i dont know if we will get another winter anymore.

izyan's going to school this september. although it is 7-8 months away but i cnt help feeling overwhelmed - sad and happy. she is quite attached to me (or i am quite attached to her) so having to stay at home without her would definitely make a differrent. but on the hand, i get to relax and not thinking of how to entertain her all day or maybe i can go out for lunch with husband. we never been out for a date let alone lunch/dinner date since we got irfan. well, its 7-8 months away..... let see.



Thursday, January 5, 2017

potty train

i meant to talk about this a while ago. its been one month since izyan successfully potty trained- day and night! i didnt expect that she would go diaperless at night that soon but anyway good thing now she is. i find myself a bit more calmer and relax this time around compared to my first time. i set my target from the previous experience.

1. The first three days, i should expect accidents ALL through the days.

2. By day 7, there still might be an accident but he/she should aware that nature callings.

I learnt that accidents happened either if the child still dont get the awareness of the nature calling or they just simply dont like doing bussiness  other than in their diapers. If accidents happened because of the first reason, simply continue the routine by ensure taking them to the toilet every 15min- 30 min, 1-2  hour  (increase the period day by day to monitor).

If it happened because of latter, you should do some tricks to discipline them to go to the toilet (get a potty train book, get stickers, buy a fancy potty train bowl, buy a fancy or favourite character of their underpants and while waiting for the bussiness to be done, maybe sing a song, make a joke or tell a stories.. you know get creative). Its a hard work but if you are consistents, 7 days or so is just a short period, trust me.

But most importantly, a parent should be prepared mentally and physically (its a lot of work taking them to toilet, waiting, cleaning). Tried very hard not to scold them. Tell them over and over again 'pee in here'.

Some parent delay potty train because their child could not speak yet. I personally dont think that's the issue. Irfan could not speak a single word when i started to potty trained him. Izyan on the other hand could speaks a few words. Both of them potty trained at 2 years 7 months.

My only concern is that, Irfan who is now 4years 7months still wearing diaper at night. He seems not to aware the nature calling when he was sleeping. A few times, when he wasnt wearing a diaper when he was sleeping, he woke up and wet his bed. But he was very upset and cried and cranky because he had to changed into a new pants. He didnt drink and always pee before went to bed. But still he would have a wet diaper (a heavy one!) everysingle night.

I still have no solution to this. If you have any idea of how to tackle this, let me know.

Sunday, December 11, 2016

how to teach kids eat vege

common parenting issue here. first of all, i dont like vege and a picky one. so that makes it difficult for me to teach my kids on how to eat vege. second, since my kids only drink milk in the morning, it is important to ensure they have all sort of nutrition from their main meal. 

kids (and me too) have tendancy to reject any food that comes in green colour (why is that i dont know) without even really know what they'll be taste like.  so my first rule is, try a bit. if you dont really like it, then its fine ( for not finishing it that day). no point of forcing them to eat ( when i know i had a hard time to finish my vege). but try first. if they dont complain (but have this 'not enjoying it' face'), ask them to try another. 

experiment with the likes and what not and how they want it to be cook or served.  like me or any adult we have our own preferences. so does the kids.  some like cucumber with sandwich but some like having it alone. some like to eat green peas only if there's a mix of sweetcorn as well. no matter ridiculous of how they want it to have, try to find a way. it didnt take one day to know their favourite.  probably months. just try it differently. take your time. efforts count.

how to know what they like or not. try to talk to them. org kata jgn bercakap masa makan. but in this case, you can - with manners of course (jangan la mulut penuh nasi nak juga becakap). ask question like what are you eating,  what colour, how many carrot you have on your plate, how does it taste (sweet/ bitter/ yucky/ delicious/ soft), talk about shape/texture of the vege. so while you explaining or asking, they probably eating two or three carrot already (yay!). or if they hsve siblings, make a race of who can finish their vege first. dont have to include everything in one meal time. make different activity / questions for every other meal time (so u dont end up with same conversation esch time - boring!)

praise. with good words like high5 , you did a good eating, good job for finish your food/meal, yayy to empty plate. always reasoning to why you praise them so they know oh i was a good boy because i finish my meal. same goes treat after meal. say - i give this chocolate because just now you finish your vege. (btw, if you want to give a treat for kids its okay as long as you give them with meals --- not as snacking. maknanya,  after meal terus bagi instead of tunggu lagi 2-3 hours utk snack time. from dental POV,  this to avoid multiple attack on the teeth . anyway, a dentist told me this).

last, groceries shopping. one way to introduce them to vege. i rarely asked them to assist me cooking (like cutting vege, clean it etc -- you cn do this too), because i like to do cooking all myself lebih cepat lol. so how i want to make them involve in preparing what they eat is i took them for groceries shopping. first, i asked them to make list. of course their list would include none of the vege. so teach and introduce some basic vege on the list. then when shopping ask them to find. you can talk with your children over meal of how they help you buy all the ingredients. 

let eat vege!!!!